No one ever said that life was fair
And I'm not saying that it should be
So knowing that you are where you want to be
And I'm not comes as no surprise
But don't expect me to be happy for you
And don't smile at me and tell me
Things will work out for me too
I don't want your pity
I HATE YOUR PITY

i am becoming completely dissatisfied with humans right now. yes, i am dissatisfied at MYSELF and every other human in this world. nothing seems to come easy anymore. and the only thing that our generation thinks is about themselves. even right now, i am thinking about myself, not putting other peoples opinion into observation. i am soon going to rant about a topic with which no one will read. the reason why no one will read this? because i am nothing. yes, i may be a human, but how many other humans are there? millions!

at the moment i am noticing that when we want something, we will do anything for it. it comes to the point were some people will kill for it, but most of us are not put into that situation. on the other hand though, people will ignore others' feelings. they won't even notice that it is not right to do something like that because they are so into the moment, that they only thing they see is what they want, and then trying to get around whatever is stopping them.

I'm trying to tell myself that i am not depressed, i really don't think i am not. except sometimes, in the back of my head, i still think it is slightly possible. but of course i am not going to admit that to anyone, because if i did, then there would be more chaos in this world, and we really don't need that. on the other hand though, something is happening. something strange that does not make me feel on the same level as everyone else.

of course though, since i am one single human compared to millions of others....it doesn't matter what happens to me.

old times.

roses are red
violets are blue
sugar is sweet
and so are you
but the roses are wilting
the violets are dead
the sugar bowl is empty
and my wrists are stained red

i found that interesting.
yet, i do not cut anymore.
still interesting though.