i was watching this video on youtube about someone explaining how you are the only person who is going to stay with your through everything. they will be there when you are born, when you die, and everything in between. i can understand that, people come and go. but what i can't understand is how to love myself. i don't hate myself, really i don't. i would just rather change. i want to lose weight. not because of other people, but because i don't feel comfortable in my own skin. i have to hug my waist when i am sitting down just to know that i am okay. i hate my hair. i want it to be silky and smooth. i want to be able to go up to someone, and feel comfortable talking to them. i do not care that they may not be with me all of my life, i just want to feel comfortable and good at that moment.